The Taxi Ride

The story below may be a bit sentimental but its where I'm at at the moment.
I too, like the taxi man, am driving around a little lost, a little stunned, contemplating the meaning of  'A'  life. Having spent the past 3 years every evening with my Mam and witnessing the system trying to 'facilitate' her passing more than her living. I find it surreal to find myself looking at my Uncle (her youngest brother) and witnessing the system doing the same thing to him all over again, and being the one standing between his life and earlier demise raises a lot of questions.
We are now in a new age where there is an unspoken price and time-span on human life depending on the person assigned to you.We exist in a place, time and system that places so much demand on our financial resources and time that we now have to put a limit on, not only these things but our own capacity to engage.
Modern medicine's ability to keep a person alive and healthy for longer seems to have a limit, placing the decision on how long someone lives, more in 'our' hands than God's .Do we need to change the system ?
In relation to this, I don't have the answer, but I do have an answer .
I just find it a bit disturbing- the quiet, sometimes underhand and even devious way this can be carried out by 'The System' and the very people who are supposed to be dedicated to preserving human life.This is not a judgment just an observation based on the fact that I personally had to take the initiative to prolong the life on many occasions of someone who had not made that choice himself to go.
The Taxi Ride
I arrived at the address and honked the horn. After waiting a few minutes I walked to the door and knocked.. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940's movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the      furniture was covered with sheets.There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware..
'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the
woman. She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.She kept thanking me for my kindness. 'It's nothing', I told her.. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I
would want my mother to be treated.'
'Oh, you're such a good boy, she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address and then asked,
'Could you drive through downtown?' 'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly..
'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice.
I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening.'I don't have any family left,' she continued in a soft voice.. 'The doctor says I don't have very long.' I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.
'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.
We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds.

She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing. As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said,  

'I'm tired. Let's go now'.We drove in silence to the address she had given me.It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door.The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
'How much do I owe you?' She asked, reaching into her purse.
'Nothing,' I said
You have to make a living,' she answered.
'There are other passengers,' I responded.Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said 'Thank you.'
I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light..Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life..
I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.
We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.
But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY
WHAT YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID ~BUT~THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL
Often it is the random acts of kindness that most benefit all of  us. Thank you, my friend...
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
Raymond Whitehead